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My thoughts on the coronavirus…

These past few days have been crazy, so quickly the world flipped upside down. Madness. Chaos. Coronavirus.

I must admit that I have been super annoyed with everything that’s been happening and I’ll explain why. I guess, I’m going to vent my frustration and who knows if anyone is actually going to read this because we’re all in survival mode currently.

It bothers me how so many people aren’t taking this virus seriously. Yes, celebrities but average people as well. There’s so many jokes, memes, people with “idc” attitude. Now, I’m not saying we should all sit around and be in fear or panic, but to hear what people are complaining about is astonishing. I’m seeing people complain about things closing down, like the gym. THE GYM. At a time like this, who cares about the gym. Workout at home. People are complaining about trips / vacations that they can’t go on anymore. Again, at a time like this, who cares. There are so many who still are going outside because they are “bored” and don’t want to be stuck inside. You are risking your health and those around you. People who are sad over their JOB closing, I absolutely understand. Bills still need to be paid, so you have a right to stress. But, people sad because Disneyland is closed? Get over it.

At this point, staying healthy should be everyone’s concern. I truly have seen people show their true colors with this going on. For those who aren’t affected, please be mindful. It might not affect you, because you have money and can stay quarantined for months. Think of those who are living paycheck to paycheck, missing ONE day of work means not eating, or paying a bill. It’s not that serious, but it is. And if you think like that, it’s probably because it isn’t affecting you. Think of those around you that depend on being employed. Think of the kids that depend on school for meals, now schools are closed.

I’ve started to unfollow and mute people, I know I’m a nobody so my follow doesn’t matter but, I’m over it. Anyone who is showing a lack of empathy on this matter, I don’t want you in my life. Sounds dramatic, but I like to believe I am a person that has a heart and always thinks of people who may have it worse than me. So, if you don’t care about the well-being of people in your community or around the world, you aren’t someone I want to be associated with.

Also, panic buying isn’t helping. There are so many people who can’t afford to panic buy and now have no food because there isn’t any. There are parents who can’t find diapers for their babies because people have stocked up for 7 months. I guess, I just like to be mindful of everyone and theres just so much that goes into this situation. This is crazy, it’s scary. In my 24 years old life, I haven’t seen anything like this happen. We’ve seen things like this in movies and now we’re living in it.

Please keep your conspiracy theories to yourself. Someone who just lost their loved one doesn’t want to hear about how you think the government planned this virus. It’s insensitive.

Please show sympathy. You might not currently be affected by this, but so many people in the world are. if you think now is the time to tell people that they should’ve had money saved up. Please shut up. A lot of people don’t make enough money to save. Keep your financial tips to yourself if it’s going to come off as judgmental or insensitive. If you think people are overreacting, perhaps you’re under reacting. Don’t panic of course, but don’t sit around thinking this is just a flu or cold. It’s more serious than that, we’re in a nationwide pandemic. Take it seriously.

That’s all I have to say. Please stay safe. Be mindful of those less fortunate than you. Help one another. Don’t think you’re invincible. Be kind.

Lastly, I’m trying to stay positive through this all! Meditating, praying, affirmations. Anything to keep my spirits high, stay safe and make sure to care for your mental health. This can cause a lot of anxiety, so care for yourself.

Wait, one more thing! If you actually follow my blog, then you know I am a home care CNA. Long story short, my patients daughter is the most caring person I have ever met. She has 3 young kids and her father to look after. (My patient). She has been running around from store to store looking for basic necessities, food, water, ect. People have been buying out toilet paper and she made sure to give me some. She’s given me toilet paper, paper towels, and even offered to give me food if I couldn’t find any at the stores since it’s madness. This is how we should be acting. Not hoarding, not being selfish, this is the time for people to come together, and help one another. Share.

K now I’m done rambling.

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Turning 24: Changes and realizations.

Yesterday, I turned 24! Happy birthday to me!

I didn’t really put a big importance on my birthday this year, because as I get older, I don’t seem to be so enthusiastic about birthdays. However, I’m grateful to be alive because we often forget that waking up is a blessing. I started writing about things that I wanted to accomplish for my new age for the past few years, but this year instead I’m going to blog about things that I’ve learned or things that I want to change moving into the new year.

1. Everyone isn’t going to greet you on your birthday.

I definitely used to be that person who wanted all the attention on me on my birthday, like most people. Well, birthdays are your special day, so it’s okay to treat it as such. However, it’s important to remember that everyone else’s life doesn’t stop for you. During my earlier years, high school up until maybe 21, it would bother me when certain people didn’t wish me a happy birthday, especially people I considered friends. I’ve learned that the only people who you should *expect* to greet you are people you speak to on a daily basis / significant other / immediate family / close or best friends. Even they might forget too so it’s okay. Okay, but my boyfriend better not forget!! Ever. However, don’t expect someone you just know to say it. It’s just a birthday greet. Life goes on. It’s not the end of the world.

2. I am happier without social media.

Yesterday was the first time posting on Instagram in 7 months. Within that 7 months, I took quite a few social media breaks from both Instagram and twitter. I’ve said this so many times before, but I love being away from social media. There’s so much toxicity and feeling the need to compare. Whenever I log onto social media for the first time in a week or so, it’s like I lose my breath of fresh air. The negativity instantly makes me regret logging back on. Moving forward, social media will continue to be limited. It’s better for my overall mental health and well-being.

3. It’s time to let go of the past.

A few days ago, I tried online therapy for the first time. I haven’t ever been to any kind of therapy, but I wanted to try so I opted for online sessions. I will have a blog post explaining all about my experience but in short, I loved it. My therapist explained to me that I have been holding onto my past. I was made fun of in middle school, and that is why I still have insecurities today. But like my therapist said, “your bullies aren’t going to hurt you anymore, it’s time to move on.” It is. It’s been time. Everyone heals at different speeds, but I’m ready to love myself. This goes for all things I’ve been holding onto. Goodbye.

4. Spirituality/ God makes me happy.

Meditation has been a great help with my mental health. Affirmations, all things law of attraction, I love it. My goal is to find a routine and stick to it. I also need to get back into yoga classes.

I also notice that when I pray and spend time with God, I feel protected and more at peace. I want to make it a habit to keep him first.

5. It’s time to stop making the same financial mistakes.

We have to make mistakes. It’s life. However, we shouldn’t keep making the same mistakes. We need to learn from them. I know I’m still young, but I’ve finally realized that I need to place more of a important on financial literacy. I still make stupid purchases and run through my savings account then act surprised when I’m broke. Highlight of my birthday was paying off the last of an old credit card. Finally freeeeeee! This year, I want to take control of my finances so I’m able to live comfortably. Paying off debt and building up a fat savings! Yes please!

6. No more overthinking or negative self talk. ~ controlling my mind / thoughts ~

Just after celebrating my birthday, myself and my boyfriend got home and started to unwind. I could sense myself start to get antsy and overthink things that don’t need to be thought about on my birthday. The Bible scripture about not worrying about tomorrow is so relevant. Anyways, I’m done overthinking. I’m done negative self talking. We believe things we say and think about ourselves. I’m ready for nothing but positive affirmations. I am happy. I am healthy. I am attracting my goals. I am successful.

7. More self love.

I am a work in progress. But it’s time to love myself. Confidence is sexy. One trick I read with self love and body confidence is to dress for your body type. I am skinny. I’ve always been and that’s just how it is. I’ve tried to gain weight to be thicker. I need to start wearing things that really make my body look good. So I want to go through my closet and get rid of things that I don’t wear anymore and build up my closet. Who doesn’t love new clothes.

8. Traveling is a must.

I really want to get my passport and travel around the US. There’s so much beauty to see and being stuck in the same place is getting old.

9. I will focus more on my goals/ the future.

I’m so ready to attract my my wildest dreams and desires, my focuses on living an abundant life. There is nothing too big for us to achieve. We can do anything we set our minds to. I’m ready to accomplish great things this year.

10. Writing is the career that I want but…..

I love writing and there is nothing else I can see myself doing besides owning a business. However, I’ve learned that journalistic style writing isn’t for me to an extent. Journalism is all about bringing news to the public. I love writing poetry, articles of my own choice, stories and songs. I don’t care to write about breaking news. I love the freedom to write about what I want to. I wouldn’t mind music journalism though! I was offered a chance to write for a online news site. I turned it down because it wasn’t for me.

11. PATIENCE.

I need to work on my patience, I get very annoyed and impatient very quickly. I’m working on it.

12. Life is short.

Cliche, I know. But life is short. I want to work on appreciating life more and experience all that is has to offer.

13. Open mind.

I want to keep an open mind. The last few months I’ve been more open minded and it’s truly a great way to live life.

14. I am still young.

Twenty four is still young. I’ve got a lot to learn and see and even though I may feel like I’m running out of time. I’m not. I am exactly where I need to be. Everything that is for me is coming to me.

Okay, that’s all for now. I’m sure there’s more things but this is the basis of it. So happy birthday to me! Here’s to 24!

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